Hey! :3

Okay, so. This journal is totally public, so read it if you like, I don't mind at all. ^^;

But if you decide to friend me, please comment here and let me know and I'll add you back! A lot of the time I never check to see who's friended me so I can't friend you back. Just give me a heads up here. :3

-- Sha

Figured it ought to be easier to make another post rather than tell everyone individual.

On adding my new journal. First of all, I don't really post in it. I'm trying -- I guess I'll get there eventually.

Secondly, I'm not going to add you if your journal regularly talks about dolls. This new journal is like a rehab -- I'm a junkie kicking a habit. I'd rather not hear about them anymore. For most people, if I don't add you back, that's why. For others, if I don't add you, it's for some other reason, like never having talked before.

I no longer have any dolls in my house and almost no doll-related items. There's so many things I could say, but eleven little words sum it all up nicely.

I am SO glad to be out of this fucking hobby.

So long. You can find me at diagnonsense now.

It's been set in motion now. Here is the thread that contains almost all of the doll things I have. The only things that aren't listed are a few small items that aren't worth selling, Gremory's commissioned Batchix outfit which I couldn't bear to let go of and some other things that probably wouldn't sell. Otherwise, it's all there. This is really hard for me to do, but it absolutely needs to be done, I know this. I'm making it happen no matter what other little parts of me might have to say about it.

I just want to thank everyone that said goodbye to me and sent me well wishes. I'll miss all of you, although I have to say I dearly hope that I will not return, for my own sake. *sends love*

[edit 6:34PM] There was initially a huge influx of PMs and pretty much everything by now but a lot of the Hound stuff has been claimed, some of it paid for. I decided not to ship out of the country because I've never really felt comfortable doing that, and it caused a bit of a problem with someone who wanted the Anais who lives in the UK. But now he's been claimed, but not paid for, by someone who lives in Chicago. The Syo will probably be a long time in selling. Things have really slowed down now and I have to stop myself from looking at the rest of DoA. I'm keeping up the best I can, thinking of all the stuff I'll be able to get that I couldn't spare the money to before, because I need to buy so and so, or get them clothes or wigs or whatever. Never again (oh please let me have the willpower to not look back =_=).

Anyway... I s'pose I'll keep updating this post until everything is gone. If anybody has any personal journals of theirs and would like to stay in touch, I wouldn't mind adding you.

[edit 01/04/2006 3:50PM] Hehe... I think it's safe to say that this entry is now so far back on everyone's friend list that no one is going to be reading this update, but I feel like saying it anyway. Everything is gone but the two dolls and a pair of pants. However, I still have a pair of 14mm black Souldoll eyes, some jewelry I won on YJ, a pair of black Customhouse boots, a pair of Luts sunglasses and a commissioned outfit from Batchix -- all things that Gremory wore when he was here. I cannot shake this idea in my head that as much as I'm doing the best I can to leave this hobby, that there WILL be another doll in the future. I don't want there to be, or at least, I'm telling myself that. With a new Tensiya preorder coming up and Hounds always available, Gremory could make a return. There's a lot of Unoas up for sale as well... I'm resisting the best I can. But I can't help but feel that this is all useless, that I'm going to back and buy a doll again eventually anyway -- if not Gremory again, then a Unoa... a Minifee... a BF boy. The mentality won't leave me alone. It's like it's firmly instilled in my future, I can see it, I'm imagining it. Argh! Get out of my head! ;O;

( Ciao )

I wish that Volks had prettier girl molds in their FCS. I just finished Like Water for Chocolate -- awesome book! I'd love to have a crazy girl like Gertrudis, with tanned skin. But there's only one or two Volks girls that I like at all, so finding one through the FCS is going to be an impossibility. Maybe another company? Who knows, maybe she's only meant to exist inside my head. She's extremely far off at that -- if any dolls come, like I've said, it's going to be the minifee kitty boy. :3

In other news, I took some cute nudie pictures of Ashlin lasst night -- he thoroughly enjoyed showing off. And this morning, Julie's glasses arrived. He's been here so long without them, I'm not sure if they suit him anymore. I'll try taking some pictures of him later and see if they look better on him.

I think it's going to be tough to resist trying to get a new doll pretty soon -- well, besides the fact that I have no money. *sigh* But, ahh... yeah, Bluefairy is taking credit cards soon, and I've always loved BF boys. Annnd, Narin might be growing on me, which sucks because I hate his open mouth and the glowy Narindoll resin, but being able to get a nice tanning one? Sweet. Plus, minifee Chiwoo continues to look adorable, although I'm still steadfastly trying to wait and see how mini-Yder looks. Hmm.

But right now, Ashlin and Julien really take highest priority, although I have no way to get them anything for either of them right now. Ashlin in particularly needs a wig that suits him, and Julien could use different eyes, I think. And shoes! Arggh. I need a job.

*coughcough -- is sick*

I had a little bit of sunlight in my room this morning -- not quite enough, because a lot of the photos I took came out blurry anyway. Stupid winter mornings. Anyway, here are some shots of Ashlin, and then quite a few of him and Julien at the end. For a quick snippit of background, Ashlin is actually the older brother, he's just short -- Ash is 27, Julie is 23. I hope I got their personalities through with these, and I apologize for the icky blurriness of some shots. On with the photos.

( Fifteen )

After I did Ashlin's faceup yesterday, I tightened his stringing a bit. He stands beautifully, but when I was trying to pose him with Julien, I realized how floppy Julie is. I'm getting sick, so I'm going to see if I can try and repaint Julie today and tighten up his legs.

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Current Music: red hot chili peppers; my friends.

Ashlin is, more or less, complete. His body arrived today. I redid his faceup and restrung him, but he badly needs shoes and clothes that fit and a decent wig. But he's adorable. He just needs stuff. So I'm gonna to try to get a job and get all that stuff.

Anyway, my domain is down right now, so I had to go get a Photobucket account to host these pictures. I feel like such a spoiled elitist now, like some rich woman who has to suddenly sleep on cotton sheets. Hehe... /enddork. Anyway, yeah. Pictures.

( Quick snapshots of Ashlin )

Still not sure if that name is sticking, by the way.

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*tears hair out* The week's not even over yet and so far everything's been really awful for me. One thing after another after another. The Tae outfit didn't go anywhere near what I was hoping for. I have to pay my dad back for shipping Tae's body, and then buy things for Christmas presents, which means I don't have enough money to get the things I need to start Rue de Cristal. I'll have to get a job just to get supplies, and since I've already got the job I might as well keep it, right? So, that's that.

No updates on anything. Ashlin's body is still in transit and I'm waiting for Julien's glasses as well. That's pretty much it.